Stephen's Cancer Blog

OVER A YEAR !!!

I am sorry that I have not posted anything here since Jan 2011…over a year ago. I recieved a note from someone who wanrs to talk to me about my cancer…then it hit me that I forgot all about this blog..I feel bad that I was posting so much when I felt that I needed the support, then I just drifted away without thinking that maybe someone else could use MY support. Last from me I had just finished radiation to target that tumor on my 1st surgery bed that did not respond to the sandostatin. My 1st scan after radiation showed no growth of tumor, the 2nd scan showed slight decrease in size, then 3rd scan that I just had on 2/13/2012 showed another decrease once again…thing is, all my other tumors (lungs/liver have remained stable except just 1 in my liver that has now doubled in size since scan in August 2010, so that we need to keep an eye on. At my last Dr. appt. I had to ask him that since I keep plugging along here whats his next guess for how much longer I may survive this?..there is no cure for my cancer (YET) but he now thinks that the effect of all my treatments may be what causes death b/4 the cancer itself ends my life…I KNOW I DONT HAVE EXPIREATION DATE etc…other then that, there have been a few changes in my life, my dad whos a ripe ol age of 93, now has cancer too, along with a very weak heart. Hospice has been called in, and main thing is of course his comfort..I still feel truely blessed for the life I have, and the people in it…mainly my loving wife (who is still the hottest women I have ever known)...I keep having my injections every 28 days of sandostatin, and keep having the bill collectors try to get water from this rock..ha ha ha…but I enjoy my grandkids more and more as they grow older and now are more like little friends that I can be a kid with and they think its normal….lol…hope you all are doing ok, or at least the best you can, have a GREAT day and NEVER EVER GIVE UP THE FIGHT !...your friend, Stephen

Posted on February 22, 2012 at 11:12:41 AM by Stephen (OVER A YEAR !!!, 6 comments, 843 views)

Maureen threw a punch at your cancer.

Good to hear from you. Sorry about your dad. Glad you’re hanging in there and we are always here for you :) friend!

Posted on February 22, 2012 at 11:59:26 AM by Laurie

Thank you Laurie

Posted on February 23, 2012 at 7:15:08 AM by Stephen

2011

Well here we are…another year, this was the 1st new year where I felt different ringing it in then I have for any other new year. Every other new year, my resolution would be to be around for the next new year. This year I felt different,my thoughts turned to “which way will my cancer go this year ahead”? 2010 was not a great year as far as my cancer went, with the new tumor they found, and going thru the treatments in hope to slow or stop its growth…meanwhile hoping the other tumors in my body stay in check.I can’t help but wonder…is this the year?...will I make it to Jan 1st 2012? or will I take a turn for the worse?..I know I will NEVER feel good anymore…its just natural when you have the kind of cancer I have…it WON’T go away…I wont get better…pallitive care is just so different then removing the tumor and going on with your life..I pray for the best, but I am aware of what this year MAY bring to me and my family..Lets hope I am wrong in my feelings and all will be good…ok comon 2011 I’m ready!

Posted on January 4, 2011 at 6:22:20 AM by Stephen (2011, 8 comments, 3230 views)

Laurie threw a punch at your cancer.

Tammy sent you a hug.

I hope you are wrong. I agree 2010 was not a great year. So far 2011 is good, I shall take it a little bit at a time.
Happy New Year, Rachel

p.s. Thanks for the comment on radiation—helps to put me at ease before next week!